Attempt | Diary

I know I am the worst attempt of blogger ever. I can believe I went MIA for a month! I really tried and tried to write something but I was (still am) struggling with a lot of bad/sad stuff in my life, the only thing I wanted to do was sleep. I am trying to get all that bad stuff over and keep my head up, but it is really hard to do that when everyday I find out about another thing that hurts me. My life was a big mess, now is just a mess, a mess that I am finally cleaning up. Hopefully it won't take a lot of time.

I have new plans for the blog, I will talk about them very soon, by now I just wanted you to know that I am alive. Sometimes life have another plan for us and even if you try really hard to do or have what you want it is not for you, I'm not surrendering, I am accepting my fate. I am going to make me a better life.

This poem has been really helpful for me, I find every part of it really honest and I can quite related with it.

I have forgiven mistakes that were indeed almost unforgivable.
I've tried to replace people who were irreplaceable
and tried to forget those who were unforgettable.

I've acted on impulse,
have been disappointed by people when I thought that this could never be possible.
But I have also disappointed those who I love.
I have laughed at inappropriate occasions.
I've made friends that are now friends for life.
I've screamed and jumped for joy.

I've loved and I've been loved.
But I have also been rejected and
I have been loved without loving the person back.

I've lived for love alone and made vows of eternal love.
I've had my heart broken many, many times!
I've cried while listening to music and looking at old pictures.
I've called someone just to hear their voice on the other side.
I have fallen in love with a smile.

At times, I thought I would die because I missed someone so much.
At other times, I felt very afraid
that I might loose someone very special (which ended up happening anyway.)
But I have lived! And I still continue living everyday.

I'm not just passing through life... and you shouldn't either.
Live! The best thing in life is to go ahead with all your plans and your dreams,
to embrace life and to live everyday with passion,
to lose and still keep the faith and to win while been grateful.

All of this because the world belongs to those who dare to go after what they want. And because life is really too short to be insignificant. - Charlie Chaplin